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Unchartered…at least for me
Well today we had another successful ultrasound and were able to see little Ian wiggle around on the screen. This week my wife heads into the 25th week of pregnancy. The furthest along we have gone since we lost our son Lukas at 24 weeks a little over a year ago.
I have not missed an appointment yet and our doctor has taken a look on ultrasound each time. I don’t take these glimpses for granted anymore. There is still a place in my head that tells me it could be the last time I get to see him move. I want desperately to eliminate that place in my head. I want to just push past it and look forward to the time when I get to hold him, hear him laugh (and even cry). We are still very much taking things a day at a time but this week marks a new week, and a new milestone that we haven’t gotten too before. I hope that this is just the first of many more to come, more than I can even imagine.
It is amazing to me how much of a personality you can get from ultrasounds and really paying attention to the movement of your child. A few nights ago my wife used a doppler that she brought home to listen to Ian’s heartbeat. Normally it is easy to find and this time was proving tricky. Then Ian proceeded to rub against the wand. And then he kicked it, or punched it, or head-butted it. Something hit it…directly. He continued to move around so much that we could only get glimpses of this heartbeat. Seemed like he was playing with us already. Again today on the ultrasound it seemed like he simply did not want to make it easy for us to get a good look at him…moving around all over the place. I will never forget one of the ultrasounds with Lukas…he was just sitting there…kicked back with his little feet crossed. Moving around a little bit but seemed very relaxed and just hanging out.
I can’t wait to see if Ian’s personality that he displays on screen comes through to real life.
Still Seeing Green
Kami and I are still getting pics in and we love all of the support! There is still time to send us your pictures…we are accepting them through August 11, as that was the day one year ago when Lukas was born still. We have gotten quite a few pics but we are still short of our goal of 100. We will be donating $5 for each picture to either Faces of Loss or the March of Dimes in memory of our son.
Both of these organizations are wonderful. One helped us through our tragedy and the other is working to make babies stronger and help us understand and prevent baby loss.
Please email your pictures to kami@letter10pro.com
Thank you for helping us remember Lukas!
In Memory of our Dreams
I haven’t written anything in a while for several reasons…one I have been busy, two there is a lot going on in our world and three, Kami and I have been thinking about something we can do for our son, Lukas’ birthday. Lukas was stillborn on August 11, 2010. We want to remember him and support some of our favorite baby loss charities at the same time. So here is what we came up with…
We are going to collect pictures of friends, family, readers…whomever wants to send us one. We will be donating $5 to two of our favorite baby loss charities (Faces of Loss and March of Dimes) for each picture we receive. We want you to send us pictures of you, or family, your children or all of the above with at least one green balloon. Why a green balloon? Green makes us think of our son. He was born in August so his birthstone is Perodit which is olive-green and we were about a week away from painting his room green when he was born still. Feel free to be as creative or plain as you want to be with this, but have fun and take the time to remember someone you have lost.
Also take this moment to truly appreciate your children and all that they do. Believe us, they are a blessing and their lives should be celebrated each day. We would love to get 100 pictures from different individuals (we aren’t made of money but we will donate as much as we can in support of these great causes!). You can email your picture to my wife at kami@letter10pro.com by our son’s birthday, August 11, and we are going to pull all the images together and create a collage to commemorate the occasion.
Of course we will be updating you both on here and at Kami’s blog of some of the pics we get and how much money we are raising. Also if you want to contribute more to these causes that support those dealing with baby loss and researching causes then please feel free to do so in the name of our son, Lukas Clark Moore, or in the name of a child you have lost. No amount is too small. We believe that even those that don’t spend much time on earth can have a legacy and we want our son’s to be one of love and support of others…this is our small way of remembering.
About the charities…Faces of Loss is one of the first resources Kami found online after the loss of Lukas. It truly helped us understand that we are not alone and offers support and answers to questions for mothers and fathers dealing with baby loss. Knowing that you are not alone in this tragedy helps you learn to survive. The second is March of Dimes which is always working to make stronger, healthier babies. Part of their mission is to research the problems that threaten the health of babies.
