Today was supposed to be a momentous day in my life. I was supposed to have become a father today. Instead my wife and I are mourning the loss of our son a few months ago due to a blood clot at 24 weeks of pregnancy. Lukas never had a chance to meet our families or our wonderful friends that have continued to support us during this tough time. We only got to hold him for a short while, we only got to see his personality through a few ultrasound images, we never had the chance to make memories with our son.
As we deal with the situation as best we can, I want to thank all of our friends and family that have continued to think of us and keep us in your prayers. It means a great deal to us that we have such a great group around us to show us support and hope. This would be worlds more difficult if we didn’t have you all.
December 3 will forever hold a place in our hearts as a day that should have been. If you have children in your life please do not take them for granted. They truly are a miracle and they are a blessing to you. Continue to make memories and help them fulfill their dreams.
The only memories we have with our son are dreams that will never have a chance to come true. Those dreams will always be in our hearts and Lukas will never be forgotten.
Letter 10 
7 responses to “Supposed to be Celebrating”
Oh Jay! I know there’s nothing I can say that will make things better or make the pain going away, but I feel for you guys very much. I firmly believe things happen for a reason and that out of every tragedy something good happens that may or make not make itself apparent right away. So hang in there. You guys are in my prayers.
Can’t tell you enough how much we are hurting for you. So glad you feel surrounded by support and love. We know God’s plan for your family is greater than our understanding. Sending lots of love to you and Kami.
Its been over 35 years since I lost my baby at 5 1/2 months. Back then they wouldn’t even tell me the sex of the child,so all these years I have wondered whether it was a boy or a girl. The memories never go away. You and Kami our in my prayers.
Jay..you meet people in business and tend to focus strictly on business….all the while losing sight of the fact that people are dealing with many things outside of that business world. My heart hurts for you and your wife as you deal with this loss. I hope that you are able to find a peace and comfort unknown to you until now. My families prayers go out to you!
Jay and Kami, loss for words at a time like this. We also lost our precious little granddaughter at 5 1-2 months. We got to hold her for a few minutes but her little lungs weren’t developed enough for her to live. We wondered why but still don’t know. Just in God’ plan. That was back in 07. Just this August God let us have a little grandson. He is adopted but we call him our little miracle. I still mourn and cry for Halle but God helps with the loss. We will never know why but one day we will be with her and it won’t matter. Prayers are with you and this will be a very difficult time for you just put your trust in God and He will help you through. Love to you both. God Bless
Beautifully written Jay. I know it won’t mitigate the sadness you both feel but there are so many who are praying for you both. Time will help a little but you will always remember – and so will we. Prayers for you and Kami.
Jay Iam here because I saw a link through Baby Loss Mommas on Facebook. But what struck me even more is that your son’s name is spelled just like we spelled our son’s name, Lukas with a “k”. We thought It would be different. Then I read your words and It hurt me all over again to hear your loss.